resolutions-then-and-now Jan 4, 2012 @ 11:15
It ‘s that time of year again, out with the old, in with the new. Everywhere people are looking ahead to a hopefully Bright New Year, planing on eliminating bad habits and cultivating new, healthier habits.
New Years Resolutions
Many New Years Resolutions are born of hangovers on New Years Day, or possibly the day after. Waking up from a night and day of wine, women, song, and of course for many Americans, football, head pounding, stomach doing acrobatics at a mile a minute and your first New Years Resolution is born,
No More Drinking Or Over Eating
The day wears on, your head keeps pounding, the dry heaves won’t stop, you feel as if you’re dying, and not nearly fast enough! A little ‘hair of the dog that bit you’ and some left over munchies to calm your aching insides, start tomorrow. You’ve earned it, right?
The next morning you wake up to realise every year for the last five you made the same New Years Resolution, the best you’ve done is a half a day and you finally know a New Years Resolution made while hung over and nauseous won’t stand a week, let alone form a new, better habit.
This Year I Will Lose Twenty Pounds, Will They Stay Gone?
The diet and weight loss New Years Resolution does not normally come from one night of over indulgence, it comes form a slow steady weight gain, maybe two or three pounds a month, not noticeable until the Holidays when your good clothes don’t fit right, or at all.
Most New Year Resolutions dealing with weight loss are doomed to failure from the beginning, not from a lack of resolve, but rather from resolving the wrong thing, when you lose something there is a subconscious desire to get it back.
Even if successful the weight loss won’t stick for long, while you’re busy telling everyone how much weight you lost there is a little voice in the back of your head, bemoaning the loss.
It’s a vicious cycle, ask anyone who has battled with their weight. Don’t resolve to lose weight, resolve to drop weight and be healthier by giving yourself a specific weight you want for yourself. That way you’re not losing anything, no mental reservations to hold you up, you want to weigh x amount of pounds. You are working the pounds off, it’s all about the attitude.
In 2010 I made a New Years Resolution to lose twenty pounds, gained ten after losing fifteen, double failure.
In 2011 I went a different route, I resolved to be a better me.
- I weighed 225 pounds, despite walking the dog three to five miles daily, rain, snow or shine.
- I was very bitter, it seemed the harder I worked at getting ahead the more obstacles were thrown in my way.
- It seemed like every time I learned a new way to improve I got there a bit too late, only scraps left.
It was, and is, a slow, hard journey. The most difficult part was looking deep inside and admitting I had let it happen to myself, rather through bad choices, putting my trust in the wrong type of people, or just plain bad luck, we are in the end solely responsible for how we deal with life’s up’s and down’s.
I’m not the glass half full man I want to be, not yet, but I’m getting closer. In May I made the twin discoveries on the fallacy of weight loss, at least my view of it, and a little writing trick tweak jump started my fat burning by accident.
Good thing, too, I had already upgraded my walks with the dog to hikes in the Highland State Recreation Area near my home, four miles became a ‘short’ hike.
No pounds dropped yet, but my legs were getting smaller and denser, rebuilding underused muscles. Walking, hiking and bike riding, while not taking off the pounds were having another, not noticed at first, effect.
Traveling through those woods on a daily basis was a therapy of sorts for me, I rediscovered my love of the Great Outdoors. I found some of the peace of mind I had been missing, but at a price. Memories started to resurface, memories repressed nearly twenty years ago because at that time I had no real choice, eighteen months of pain, mental and emotional, where I learned what I thought of as a near perfect life was an illusion.
The Past is past, suffice it to say I lost my mind, literally, and pretty much every thing else. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, I’ m still here, but it was close.
Along with the Peace of Mind I had been missing for so long I started to notice, uh well gaps, parts of me that were empty inside but previously unnoticed, some things forgotten so completely the space they once resided in overlooked. It was slow at first, was I truly missing parts of myself, or was I losing what was left of my mind?
Time will tell, but I lean towards the former.
I start 2012 at 185 pounds, 40 pounds lighter than last year, renewing my New Years Resolution, I still want to be better than I am now, and having started down that path I have to see it to its end. But it’s not enough, I need to do more.
This year, 2012, I resolve to make my State of Michigan and my Country a better place, a more fair place to live and raise a family.
Last year I had no idea how I was going to get better, be a better me.
It started with a thought, a conviction to do what’s right, to get positive results.
This year I don’t yet have a clear idea about how I am going to carry out my goals, they are kind of extreme. This I do know, 99 Percent of the world is upset about the Status Quo, people are looking for real solutions, not talking points.
I will find the people who want to work with me if I can, and if they want to be found. I will also do what I can to help them find me, and together we will find or build the world our Forefathers promised us.